finish ummkay

sorry phone cut out so couldnt finish what i had been saying anywho



....turn over one to your tummy, whoot i'm thinking gonna get sum YAY!!!.....annnnt wrong....the swats begain bare hand to a basicly bare ass. so in my smartness between swats i start talking, what, swat, am ,swat. i, swat, gettting, swat, a, swat, beating, swat, for, swat, swat, swat, swat, swat, hello, swat, swat,....swat keep going, and i get a mumbled gonna tell me no, swat, swat,...well i cant say no im going to tell you no, cause thats saying no, so in my blonde moment i say this....swatswatswatswatswatswatswat.....he layed back down...couple mins pass i wimper a little and he looks at mw whats worng? umm my ass is sore but i'm good, confused as hell but good, ok,nite sweety. break to the next day, after noon i get a small beat on with the fish, i'll have to explain fish later..kinda funny, and i'm rubbing the poor abused butt and he askes why, i should be healed from last thursday.....i gave a puzzled look and ask and what about last night? his turn to look puzzled, he has no recollection of us girls coming to bed with him, he thought we sayed up......holy crap i got a sleep walking spanking!!!! ummkay i didnt know that was possible

ummkay

so it been a couple of days but i didnt have computer and doing the blogg thing on the phone is interesting, but giving it a go again. so sunday night we three are going to bed, he was too tired to do anything, awww =( , so i turn the light off as i was the last one in as it was. she tells me wait and turn the switch on and pull the chain so the fan will still run. no biggie, well i had to put pants back on cause i dont know how ya'll sleep but i sleep in a shirt and panties, as i wearing a tong i didnt want my bare butt on display. he appearntly didnt care for that explaination and after i did the fan/light bit, i get into bed he looks at me...

grrrr

.....grrrrr that's all I got, hahaha and it was from me,nothing from no one else. So I was busy yesterday and it was late when I finally got the their house after receiving an order to be there, feet into the house within the next 10mins. I made it with a couple mins to spare, good thing to. Because I'm already in trouble for being late to work yesterday. However I would make the choice to be late again because what made me late helped me, well for the most part.
It's frustrating knowing something that you can't change....ie: today marks Three weeks since I've had a real spanking. by real I mean an all out, your being punished spanking. I got two what I would term as teasers or minis, one wasn't hard or anything more of this is the leather strap and your within striking distance, thought you two should say hello kind of a thing. The other was that mini like four swats with a charger cord, it was bad because I couldn't stop laughing so got two more swats before I had to bite hand to stop till he went up stairs.
Anyways frustrated, because I know I'm due for one, earned punishment yesterday with being late, and have been told I'm being semi-disrespectful or get to big for my britches. Whats so bad about that you ask? Well nothing but he is in class for the next week, so the appearance of Sir most likely not seen for a bit or the end of class. It gives me the "grrr"s. Then I feel guilty cause he cant help that or being tired.
So she and I bicker or what I would call play fight and mostly it is all fun and games. There have been a couple times I wonder about but we work it out. Now we both get told no more got to get along. We are? Just because its not clear to you how we are communicating doesn't mean it isn't working for us.
Ok last part of my venting, so get a text saying I tryed to get a kiss, but you just got up and left. That was yesterday morning. Mmmmkay my bad was still waking up, well then no kiss goodnight, bummer but no big deal. Cut to this morning, alarm goes off several times, its either snoozed or turned off, whatever not mine, mine goes off..SNOOZE, oh button how I love thee, goes off again, I get up gather all my junk, lean over, rub an arm to get attention..what happens, looks at phone to see time "fuck" and closes eyes again, so I kiss a cheek, all I get is a grunt that comes across as don't touch me. Insert sad panda face here. This wasn't a grr as much as a well that sucked in a non-fun way. When I left think I was the only one awake. That just bites

ever get those oddly time contemplative moments, see like most other things in life lately sorta unexpected. see very rarely do have, what to call it, maybe an episode, whoot...like a sitcom...remember those before reality TV...hehehe..anywho, so work today was craptastical and so was Friday, Friday there was a HUGE misunderstanding via text message between me and Sir, cause it got to the point it was Sir and not him. That is something I wonder if there is a more defined moment as to when its fun goofy games to the transformation into the all powerful Sir. To be honest at times its confusing as to when he is serious and to when he is not. Last night I started this entry but the "smart" phone was being an igit. It seems I have gotten in trouble in a way for a bad attitude on Friday and now Monday...get a suto lecture on how just because I have a bad day is no reason to be all huffy and to let shit go. Here is were the episode part comes in, I have a temper I know this but it is one of those slow boil ones, and i have a bad habit of just putting a lid on it till like a pressure cooker I just lose it. So the whole explode thing hasn't happened on months and because of what we are doing I'm making an effort to let shit out before it hits that point. But, both him and her haven't known me long enough to understand that or at the very least know that. I tried to explain but between my inability to talk about feeling stuff face to face and the interruptions that didn't happen. If I was to toss out some 'tude it would go along the lines of I'm owed two back rubs and because he is tired and has to get up way early didn't attempt to jump him. Wait he gets points he brought ice cream to us last night, apparently it was a very trying trip to boot. Part of me says maybe he s right and I need a spanking, cause I haven't gotten one in over two weeks, well not a real one, there was a mini with the strap cause he had it out and a tiny one with a charger cord, I got extra swat with that cause for whatever reason, which I still don't know I could not stop laughing. Which in turn pisses him off and you get the eyebrows and the "so I'm joke to you" spiel, that made it worse, I ended up biting my hand to stop laughing long enough for him to go upstairs, she looked at me like the hells wrong with you, I still have no idea. Kay have to go, enough rambling for now....But YAY!!! for 24hour king soopers, we did a like midnight grocery run...I bought good hot dogs with buns and pumpkin chocolate chip cookies...yummy!!!!!

what the hell was i thinking

Ohhh...what hell was i thinking....you see 1.i hate writing 2. my spelling is horrid 3. i have enough to do 4. why not?

sooo that's one loop in the mass highway system of my brain. i think i started this as a way to say the things i have such issues trying to say out loud. maybe....maybe not.....i have no idea currently....spur of the moment choice....whoot...

I'm involved in a relationship that is complicated in the very least to my own eyes. see its a couple, they are married and have a beautiful family. she calls me their speical friend, i don't know what he defines it as. i asked once what he told people, as he had just asked me, he said a couple guys at work knew that he has a wife and this girl that he beats on who likes it and they fuck. i should explain the "beats on" bit humm, see they as a couple do domestic discipline, so there is that too. add to that a Dominate/submissive aspect to the dynamic as a whole. does your brain hurt yet.. :) they asked if i was ashamed of what is going on, and I'm not but makes me wonder if they are, they say no but sometimes i still wonder. she asks a lot of the time "whats going on in your head or what are you thinking" some times i really dont know and i think that frustrates her, as she whats to talk about it, other times there is this block in my throut and the words just cant escape, i hate when it happens when he is asking questions during discipline or a leacture, cause then i get the eyebrows of doom...secretly at times i find them sexy as hell...lets hope he don't find that out.now oddly enough if you would have told me a year ago I'd be involved like this, i would have laughed at you, hell even 6 months ago. but it seems right, well....most days, sometimes it fells like I'm intruding, for example i walked into a room and they where talking they both stop and look at me till i finish and leave the room, now not saying that's bad i don't want it to come across that way. just feeling in the pit of stomach of holy crap intruding *abort*abort*move as fast as possible away*beep*beep* however then there is the time that is just awesome to be at their house, cause I've spent most if not all of my free time there. hahaha i teased my room mates girl friend that she is always at our house, paying rent on a shower and changing room....hummm i live in a glass house so it seems...note to self no throwing stones ;)

oyi yes I'm rambling, my grammar sucks, but i work on that later. but i have to run, cant be late for work or gets me a smack bottom...yup...yup...life gets intresting when we least expect it